Reminiscing (Shara)

I saw Jared last night.


I've seen him a few times since I helped rescue him from Altori.  Most of the time our conversations have been short and full of tension.  Maybe not tension.  More like regret and sadness, I guess.  


I was engaged to Jared last year.  He proposed on Halloween.  We were supposed to get married the next time we had shore leave.


That was when we were aboard the Liberty.  Me, Jared, Morgan, Rain, Zeke.....it seems like so long ago.  The five of us working together in the middle of the Delta Quadrant.   No one to depend on but each other.


We ended up being separated.  I met up with Rain after months of not knowing if he was alive or dead.  


Then I found out that Jared had been turned in for a bounty on his head and was a slave on Altori.  A group of us went and rescued him, brought him to this galaxy.


Now Jared has his own ship - called the Liberty II.     It's the same type of ship as the original Liberty.  Being on board last night....brought back so many memories.


He said last night that he wanted to win my heart again.  Can he?  Would he really want to, if he truly knew how much I've changed?  He says he knows that I'm poly-amorous.  "Hopping from bed to bed" is more how he put it.  But....does he really know everything?


And what about Warlocke?  I love him, and we're bonded.  But....he's gone so much.  I just....don't know if he feels the same way for me as he used to.


*sighs, softly*  I was faithful to Jared when we were together.  I never even was with another woman, though Jared said he didn't mind me sharing my bed with a woman, just no other guys.  But....we were on the Liberty.  The only other guys were Rain and Zeke.  It was....easier to be faithful, I guess.  Less temptation. 


Last night we had a date on the Liberty II.  It was romantic and sweet.  It did bring back a lot of memories.  Wonderful ones.   


At the end of the evening, I stayed in his room with him.  Nothing happened.  We just....slept. 


Wearing one of his shirts, his scent on it, being held in his arms as I slept - that was one of the most peaceful nights I have spent in a long time.  


Jared wants me to join his crew on the Liberty II.  I can't.  I have duties and responsibilities to NavKor, but I said I would join him on missions when I could.


I guess we'll see what happens....